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I am getting used to lying on rooftops that look like ripples, counting tears from clouds that hide behind a night mask of their own. I used to count them, remember every drop between my fingers but now they splatter like alcohol, drowsy medication and lies. I slide pieces of love notes and unsent letters under the plastic on the dining table, hoping one day you'll sit there and notice it under your routine glass of Jack Daniels.

Every morning I wake up to dirty teacups and half eaten pancakes, empty hammocks and closed doors. When will you be home again? When will you actually look at me rather than the stain my shadow makes on your bathroom door. And think of the fact that we can't even stand back to bare back anymore. Think of how our fingers can't stay intertwined for more than a few seconds. And then ask yourself why I beg for the same things every minute you aren't engrossed in the next lie you'll spit on my face.

I'm accustomed to sitting on dirt and weeds, kissing stigmas and bathing sepals. I used to open my eyes to crystal vases full of water beads in my favorite colors, baby's breath, lace ribbons and poetry on cards too small for your writing stuck on my pillow. I pile them together and tie them with discarded strings from lingerie because maybe you'll touch them when you pass and turn towards my naked sleep.

All day I sit at the tinted windows, thinking I should get blinds because the newly married couple next door would see me home as they walk together for their paper. For their love. Then I find myself with another shot of tequila, salty fingers, lime flavored tears and a book on the perfect couple. Because if I can live a lie, I can read a lie.

I'm getting used to lying on cold tile floors, a shower head; my rain illusion. I used to laugh at your pile of condoms and club tickets and now I cry with them. I should have known before. I should have thought. But then again; I was buying you a ring while you had a bachelor party.
This is not personal...at all. Yet still...the mood feels so similar to it. Idk...>< Anyways. Yeah.
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ojos-de-oro Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2010   Photographer
This is so sad.


(Well done, though!)
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Iniquitire Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2010
haha like I explained...I just took a mood and put it into a different situation. Thank you very,very much ^^
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DoppelgangerIsI Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
Love can destroy you, and not in a pretty metaphorical sense.
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Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
Haha Love can destroy anything and prematurely too, if we keep thinking about the fact that we -will- lose everything we love.
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DoppelgangerIsI Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
Or if we're unwilling to face that we've already lost it.
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:iconiniquitire:
Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
Sometimes something just keeps you tied there to drag along. Maybe its exactly what you thought you had in the first place.
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DoppelgangerIsI Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
I feel like that's usually a delusion we tell to keep ourselves sane.
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:iconiniquitire:
Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
Anything to avoid the long, dark hallways, not so?
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DoppelgangerIsI Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
But it's not really avoiding the darkness to walk through it with your eyes closed.
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:iconiniquitire:
Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
Figures follow you...memories.
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Gothicangel93 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010   Writer
I like the last line: " I was buying you a ring while you had a bachleor party. " It reminds me of something! This is perfect once again. Well Done!
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Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
Yay thanks.
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Gothicangel93 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010   Writer
:XD:
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:iconiniquitire:
Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
:O_o:
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Gothicangel93 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010   Writer
Uh? :p
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londonrey Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
I LOVE the last two stanzas.. very powerful. Andd I have to agree with :iconendlessbard: on this one, it's so.. full. It's real and full. You're probably pulling emotions from somewhere else and turning them into this.. that's my guess, for how emotional this is. :hug:
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Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
Very right. Everything that's been bottled up...once I star feeling empty...I like putting myself in either a made up character's shoes or someone I know of and...just write and pour all of it into that situation. :) :hug: Thank you, London teehee.
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londonrey Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
There you go!! (:
I know what you mean.
Every person in my stories is just me.. in a different situation. XD.
I'm really terribly selfish. (:
:hug:
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Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
HAHA awesome ^^ I have a bit of problems writing -about- someone...unless I'm included too. I can't write from an outside perspective because I just feel like the story is coming out very amateur [even if I am >.>] and...childish. So its a lot more personal and...captivating if I write it with my own emotions and being :)
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londonrey Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
Exactly! ^_^ You get it!
We can be selfish together!!! :D
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:iconiniquitire:
Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
Haha anytime you want! I can't even begin to tell you how amazing it was to write with you. You blow my mind. XD and have me smiling like an idiot.
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londonrey Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
WE ARE AWESOME.
People like, frickin REQUESTED our collaborations.
:clap:
:bow:

We can also smile like idiots together.
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Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
EEEP. I know right :clap: :boogie:

You made that happen! it was your awesomeness haha.
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DeeplyInThought Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
Reminds me of pure bitter solitude, which isn't good, but...with your writing, it's captivating
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Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
:hug: Thanks. I dunno...that's how I -wanted- it to feel. I like to read back...understand the emotion...
When you understand it, you can fix it...or learn to ignore it :)
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DeeplyInThought Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
Good strategy :thumbsup:
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:iconiniquitire:
Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
Maybe you can give it a try sometime :)
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DeeplyInThought Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010
mhhmm
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endlessbard Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
This is bitter. Sardonic. Regretful. There's so many parts that I like, that stand out to me, because the imagery is so apt.
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Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
And to think...I'm not even in that mood. It's more like...imagine a woman going through this...and imagine what she feels -after-. That's how I feel. And I have no reason to.

However...I like this comment :) I like what you describe it as haha. Its on point. Thank you :hug:
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endlessbard Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
It's really cool to be able to put a feeling you don't actually have into what you write. I'm not sure I'd be able to.

You're welcome :hug: :-)
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Iniquitire Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010
I think you can. However...this was more like...I put an emotion I didn't understand into a situation that would probably have the same kind of feel. :)
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endlessbard Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, I see. Well, it worked out really well :-)
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